Dream Fulfillment

Bhoomi has been a dreamer since the time she had senses. She perceives it to be one of the ideal recluses for those who are deprived of the freedom to pursue the fancies of life. Being born to a semi-conservative Indian family, she considered dreams are the only source of connection between what one has and what one desires. She always dreamt and strongly wanted them to materialize, until this day came to her life. That day was different. She never thought her dreams will so brutally connect her to the reality. It was something that no daughter in this world would ever wish for. This is exactly what Bhoomi thought when she first saw the bleak and numb corpse of her father lying in front. Unthinkable as the incident was, it seemed more to her because of this. When everyone was consumed in the grief of his departure, Bhoomi wondered how is that she knew this would happen and still did not do anything. There was a sense of irreparable loss. While the body was taken for cremation, she had to be rushed to the doctor. She had a breakdown.

“It was just a fortnight before, the night when baba got admitted to hospital I had this weird dream” Bhoomi confessed to her therapist. Sitting inside the dimly lit chamber of Dr. Venesa Nandi, Bhoomi was shivering in disgust.

Dr. Nandi (her doctor) interrogated “What did you do then? “

“The next morning I informed ma but she said we call it a nightmare which could be quashed by praying to god” replied Bhoomi helplessly. Dr. Nandi seemed wordless.

Bhoomi went on “but how could you expect that same god to listen to your prayers one more time when he has already granted the bigger wish”.

“And what’s that?” asked Dr. Nandi inquisitively;

“The wish of materializing all my dreams” said Bhoomi with a sigh.

“Doctor God perhaps cheated on me” Bhoomi complained.

Dr. Nandi left her seat and went to console Bhoomi. Bhoomi was taking long frequent breaths but was unable to cry. “That was a nightmare and not a dream” said Bhoomi clinching the hands of Dr. Nandi.

Dr. Nandi said, “Calm down please”. “I understand what you are going through. But you see it was fatal”

“No it was not” screamed Bhoomi. “I knew this was supposed to happen but never tried anything to prevent it. Can you believe this?” asked Bhoomi.

Dr. Nandi tried to soothe her. She knew Bhoomi was her dad’s princess and could presume how difficult it is going to be for her to accept the death, though such a confrontation was surprising. She found Bhoomi has lost her composure. “Bhoomi have you heard the proverb – ‘the best source of knowledge is your past’

“I don’t care doctor. I know what I have lost and just can’t let it go at the name of knowledge” screamed Bhoomi.

“Of course not Bhoomi, but all I meant is that you are innocent. Trust me. You had no role to play in this. You could have in no way stopped all these from happening” said Nandi.

“Are you heartless or shall I say ruthless?” said Bhoomi.

“How can you expect me excuse myself when I know I am the sole person who could have changed the situation. Doctor I have lost the person I loved most. Do you understand that?” she yelled.

“Baba taught me to dream and also the way to realize them …” Bhoomi banged the table restlessly. 

“Why did not baba tell me about nightmares? Why doctor? Why did I let this happen to Baba?” questioned Bhoomi.

Dr. Nandi hardly found anything to tell in defense. She kept quiet for a minute. Then she said, “Bhoomi lets not talk about all these anymore today. I have prescribed some medicines, please take them. I will meet you again after 7 days. Till then just don’t think about all these. Your baba will never be happy if he finds you like this. Also get some good sleep for yourself, you really need it.” She extended the prescription to Bhoomi with a smile on her face.

“I will never sleep again. This is the best way to make up for the wrong I did to baba” swore Bhoomi and rushed out of the place.              

Good Wishes

Ria